dreams

when school ends, blogging is the last thing on my mind that i want to do. probably because i have many other better stuff to keep myself busy with for the past few weeks, like working, watching anime and not forgetting my drinking sessions. talking about drinking, i think i suck at drinking now. so to those out there who hate me, you can make me drunk and leave me by the roadside for revenge. i need to drink more often to up my tolerance or else stupid, fat and ugly dabai will start laughing at me again.

he was telling me there are 4 obstacles to realizing dreams. i think i belong to the baker now. i have achieved what i always want to and right now, my life has came to a stand still. so how am i supposed to proceed from here? it is like i have lost something in my life, not knowing where to go next. even when i set my mind in doing something, the drive is not as strong as before, the passion is not there. everything just seems so blur and i am clueless. i know one day, i will find my direction but right now, i just have to recharge myself before the next sprint.

i have given up hope on it. i know things are not going to work out so i dont think there is any point in holding onto it for my dear life. i have much better and more meaningful stuff to do rather than hoping and waiting. i am sick of the uncertainity. i am happy alone.

double doses of friendships!